Picking at my skin is an old habit of mine. It began when I was very young, before I was
even aware that it was a habit.
Whenever I concentrate on something, when I feel unstable, when I sit and read a book—
always, I pick at my skin. Wherever I’ve been, small pieces of my skin are left behind.
They range from tiny grains to slightly larger fragments. I leave parts of myself in the
places where I stay.
The spots where the skin has been torn away sometimes reveal soft pink flesh,
sometimes begin to bleed, and sometimes leave behind a dangling piece that hasn’t fully
come off. My hands are like my shame. When I show my hands to someone, I often try to
hide them.
No matter how much I pick, new skin always grows back. At night my fingers may be
torn up, but by the next morning I wake to find them ever so slightly smoothed over. I take
myself apart, I create my own shame, and my body heals itself.
I tried not to destroy anything, yet I destroy myself. Someone once called this habit a form
of self-harm. Above all, more than anyone else, I am the one who harms myself.
What are you destroying? The tattered corner of a book, hands dried from washing too
often, a window frame rusted from being left alone too long, bleeding lips, the long
horizontal scars on your back from growing pains.
I float our violences on water, in the most non-violent way.
BIO
Shinyoung Rhyu (*1998, South Korea) works with photography and installation. She draws attention to the often-overlooked occurrences of daily life, presenting them from a fresh perspective and unveils the invisible layers of society. She lives and works in Cologne.
CONTACT
shinyoungrhyu.com
@plersomnium
shinyoung.rhyu@khm.de